well that sucks

is exactly what I thought when I saw this on my scale today... two weeks ago when I blogged I was so close to saying good bye to the 250s... and because of my poor choices and lack of working out I am back in them. Its frustrating... but I need this kick in the pants to remotivate myself.

I was getting excited that spring was coming... I was looking forward to getting to go for my walks outside and enjoying that 'me' time that I only can fully get in the spring/summer. Its easy to convince my family to 'let' me go do these walks because I take the dogs with me and just walk, jog, run... whatever I want to do at the moment.

Not to make excuses, but I had a feeling that the scale wasn't going to show the 'best' numbers this week strictly because of the amount of salt I have been craving (and indulging in) and the number of zits on my face strictly could almost promise a small gain. Hopefully since part of the gain is strictly because I am a girl it will come off easy this week with some refocusing and real determination.

Here are my goals for the week:

• drink my water
• follow my diet. This means reporting EVERY SINGLE THING that goes into my mouth. 
• stay within point range, and not use any "activity" points that I earn
• drink my water
• at least 30 minutes of cardio 3 times this week
• Try to attend Muscle work class at the Y at least once this coming week.
• get 5 servings of fruits/vegetables
• Drink my water
• take some time to reflect on my life and try to stay positive
• Did I mention drinking my water?

Here is to a better week for everyone participating in this current challenge

SUCCESS...

This is what I saw when I looked down on the scale this morning... this number puts me at a 2.2 lbs loss for the week. I wish I could say that I 'rocked' this week.. because I didn't. Wednesday I did ok on my eating... although I did have 2 pieces of taco pizza at darts (DAMN YOU SHAWN!!!!) and more beer than I should have, but Thursday I did really good.. and then came Friday... again not to so good choices... Indian Tacos (DAMN YOU MAE) and more beer... but come Saturday I knew I needed to kick it up... I could FEEL tha I gained weight which lead me to stepping on the scale Sunday morning... it actually read 257.2. I flipped out. How does someone gain 5 lbs in 4 days.... hmm let me think, salt, salt, salt. So while I was drinking my water (150 ozs/day) I am fairly certainly I was holding onto pretty much all of it... So I got my head out of my butt and into the game and I ended up with a 2.2 lb loss for the week... I'll take it.

I do with I had this scale reading today rather than yesterday thought...you see Tuesdays is weigh in day for my Biggest Loser challenge... and on that challenge I had to report a gain still... yesterday my weight was 254.2, which was a 2 lb gain... But I'm not gonna beat myself anymore about it. I will just show a 'bigger' loss next week.

This week's goals are the same:
Follow diet, VEGGIES BABY
Drink my water
Stay out of the "poor mes'... I'm beginning to believe that it's OTHER people who suck at life and not me.
Exercise
and one for added fun (more of a mental challenge).... try to be positive.

Good luck everyone!!!
Kristin

We GOT THIS!!!

When I found out about the newest challenge at Shrinking Jeans, I knew I wanted to find a partner who was local. This by no means that I didn't love my challenges that had my paired with folks who were across the country... but I KNEW I needed someone who saw me on a frequent basis and who saw the shit I put in my mouth and who knew that my ass wasn't going to the gym or exercising.

I'm not a stranger to shrinking jeans, but like my partner in crime I am going to give a little background on myself. I am a 30 year old *** EEEEEEKKKKK*** stay at home mom to four amazing kiddos. My battle with my weight began far before I had children. When I was 15 I was diagnosed with leukemia... and while I was 'chubby' before I started my treatment it was probably a good thing as I dropped 70 pounds *I was 205* in a little over 2 months... NOT the best diet plan. My body couldn't take any nutrients if it tried... long story short KICKED CANCER'S ASS, and then got back to life. Well when I got back to life I quickly shot up to over 200 lbs because my body didn't know what to do with food after months of being on liquid iv nurients. Fast forward to struggling with infertility, multiple miscarriages, and 4 kids later (I'm not as awesome as Mae... I only have one set of twins)... here I am. I have had a fairly emotional last few years and I am very much an emotional eater ... and that needs to stop.

So for today's weigh in my weight is 252 lbs. I know that with my own determination and that help of my amazing partner we are going to do some serious 'damage' to the fat cells that have attached themselves to our... ummm lives.

My goals for this week are:
DRINK LOTS OF WATER
follow my Weight Watcher PointsPlus Plan... and remember that veggies are FREE BABY!!!
Exercise
get my head out of the 'poor mes' and start telling myself that I do not suck at life... Happy is Healthy right?

Good luck to all my fellow challengers...

Welcome

Welcome to the nut house!!

In the fall of 2007 two women met. They met through a common bond... they were moms, and not just 'any' moms but moms who have twins and in one of the mom's cases two sets of twins. Both of these mom had four children (well at the time one mom was pregnant with #4) and were busy ladies.

Over time these two moms have gotten closer and have decided that they are going to band together for the latest challenge at The Sisterhood of the Shrinking Jeans which has been named "Spring in 2 Action". They don't have a lot of details for the challenge yet, but they do know that it starts on Wednesday, March 2nd.

Thankfully Kristin and Mae are both committed to this challenge and to helping each other on this journey to lose the pounds.

Hope to see you there!

-Kristin

HOLY @#$%

I was sitting at the computer doing some menu planning and updating my Weight Watchers e-Tools for this mornings food journal etc and I thought its been a while since I calculated my BMI. So I did it... bad idea. Well not really it was a good idea in that it told me something I needed to hear but it was a bad idea because it told me what I didn't want to hear.

The BMI break down as such:

BMI under 18.5 is underweight
BMI between 18.5 and 24.9 are considered at a normal weight
BMI between 25 and 29.9 are considered to be over weight
BMI between 30 and 39.9 are considered to be obese
and anything over is morbidly obese...

would you like to know what mine was??? 44.63 that means that not only am I overweight... not only am I obese but I am actually morbidly obese.... Just what you want to hear on a Monday right???

But actually it is exactly what I needed to hear... it is just one more thing that I am going to use as motivation to get myself healthy.

Power of One Project #1

My amazing friends over at the Sisterhood of the Shrinking Jeans issued the Monthly Project last week and while I wrote my letter I forgot to post it. We were 'assigned' to write a letter to our future self. We are addressing ourselves in 2012... here is the letter that I wrote to myself: Enjoy

Dear 2011 Kristin,

Wow! What a year it has been for you. There have been some struggles I know… but you know what, you survived them and you are stronger because of them

You have always struggled with your weight and this past year you figured it out. Your realized that it isn’t about what the scale says…you know that it is about how you feel, the choices you make and about accepting who you are.

You are an amazing person. You are an amazing friend. You are an amazing mother. There is not anything that you will not do for your children and that is what makes you…. Well you. But that is also your downfall… you put them before yourself so much that you often forget to take care of yourself.

I am proud of you because in 2011 you took the time to take time for YOU. You finally realized that in order to make your children’s lives better you have to make yours better too.

I know that you set the goal to run your first ½ marathon in 2011… and I hope that you accomplished that… I know how important it was to you. It may not have been with Team in Training in San Diego to celebrate 15 years of being cancer free… but I KNOW that you did it somewhere somehow. You are going to accomplish amazing things.

You finally got your shit together girl!!! And now you’ve just got to keep it together!

Look to the future Kristin…because yours is bright…. You are going to do good and amazing things! You’ve GOT THIS!!!

Love-

2012 Kristin 

May everyone accomplish the goals that they have set for themselves in 2011!! Good luck everyone! I know you can do it!!!

Weigh-in Wednesday: The Power of One

Today is the beginning of the second week for the newest challenge over at the Sisterhood of the Shrinking Jeans. This latest challenge is all about YOU... or in this case ME :) Even though the challenge began last week they certainly wouldn't turn you away if you still wanted to join in... so if you do please just pop on over to www.shrinkingjeans.net and sign up... when it comes to weight loss buddies... more is definately merrier :)

This week was kind of a challenge for me. I committed to drinking an assload  alot of water and am proud to say that I accomplished the amount that I had set out for myself 4 out of the 7 days in the last week. I did cook 6 out of 7 nights for my family... BUT one of those nights it was pizza... and they were frozen... BUT I did whip up a salad and some fresh veggies for them to eat to go with it. Laslt night we had dreaded 'drive thru' and while I purposely points so I could have the french fries and gravy I didn't take into consideration the amount of salt that is put onto the french fries.

In the exercise department I haven't done as well as I would have liked. I've got some sick kids in my house as of right now, and as any mom knows when they are sick they want their mommies, so that hasn't really given me the time to hit the gym. I have however walked up and down my stairs for no reason other than exercise over 150 times in the past 7 days... I did not count the times that I was doing laundry or grabbing something out of the freezer etc so I think I did ok.

Friday night/Saturday was bad... nuff said. I can tell you that I didn't make poor food choices... I did however make very bad beverage choices...and too many of those choices.

So here is this week's update. The scale this morning said 253 lbs on the dot. I was disappointed. In fact I even twittered and Facebooked about the fact that I had gained....but when I went to WeightWatchers.com to enter my weight into my awesome online tools I saw that last week my weight was 254.2, so even with some bad choices I still managed to lose 1.2 lbs this week... I'll take it.

That certainly does not mean that I have a 'freedom' card to just eat whatever the hell I want and not exercise for real... no way in heck! I want to get healthy... I have a major goal I want to accomplish in 2011 (more on that later) and NOTHING is going to stand in my way of accomplishing it this time... NOTHING.

Good luck to all my fellow weight loss friends, may this week be a successful one for you...